I Wish I Still Cared
annette holguin
Heavenly Mary
that I've known forever,
I wish I still cared.
I wish I still cared, for
the saintly stories and buildings, all
the paint-withered statues and things.
I wish I still cared for
The church Sundays and confessions, all
of which doesn’t make a difference to privileged sinners.
I wish I still cared, for
your son’s sacrificed blood, all
he did was save so, so many that even he would abhor.
I wish I still cared, for
my mother’s prayers to whomever will hear, all
in hopes to “save” my soul. Surely you’ve listened, haven’t you?
I wish I still cared, for
earning a seat for myself in heaven above, all
I truly beg for is a reason to survive this manmade Hell.
I wish I still cared for
fearing angel Lucifer’s oh so sinful designs, all
I see nearly daily are human crimes committed in the name of God.
Heavenly Mary,
I wish I still cared, but I've long given up
Ever since I saw
Through
your
Veil.

Author Bio
Annette Holguin is a current Senior double majoring in Creative Writing and Linguistics with a minor in Secondary Education at The University of Texas at El Paso. Her work was previously published in Chrysalis and Pasos Journal during her time as an EPCC student, and as a UTEP student she was a contributor to Issue 2 of el underground. She is an El Paso native and uses her experiences as a Mexican American to further practice and strengthen her writing and storytelling.



